Even More Anxiety

Tuesday was a    day

This day just couldn’t end soon enough. The anxiety was high all day, and I just couldn’t get it into check. It felt impossible to care for Monster, and then it doubled when Daughter got home. I had a hard time just sitting still, so badly that I didn’t cling to the computer. I kept calling husband, even though I told myself yesterday that I wouldn’t. I forced myself to sit on the floor with Daughter and Monster and draw with crayons, and then the hallucinations started. I had quite a few, and of the same thing. I kept seeing people walk past my window, out of the corner of my eye, and it felt real. While trying to take a nap that afternoon, I heard someone climbing the stairs and banging around a bit. Husband told me before that the cat can be really loud on the stairs, so it may have been that.

I took probably a total of six Perphenazines throughout the day, but it didn’t help much. When Husband got home, he gave me some quiet peace. I went upstairs to my room with the laptop and just stayed there most of the night. I am just now starting to get into LOLCats and discovered the celebrity ones too. Sitting on my own really helped, but the anxiety didn’t completely go away.

Earlier in the day a medical issue came up for me, which may or may not be something serious. I’m sure this had to do with the elevated anxiety, and this stress alone could cause the hallucinations.  

I am still feeling a bit ill with my cough, but it was a lot better. There were only a few coughing fits, and I was able to lay down for a little while without feeling like my lungs were ready to burst.