Don't Wanna

Wednesday was a     day
I don't feel like blogging today, and actually, I'm not sure even why I am blogging to say that I am not going to blog.

It's just been more of the same, anxiety, take a pill, anxiety, take another pill. I went to the gym about 4:30, rode the bike for an hour, did my weight machine circuit and some free weights and went home. I hate going, but once I am there I get into the zone and wonder why I don't get going easier. Part of the reason is the child care, I am not comfortable leaving Monster there as much as before, and if I want to do my full workout, along with a soak in the hot tub and shower, it is longer than two hours, and that is the limit for child care there. However, I don't really think they would notice if it were 15 or 30 minutes late, besides what would they do, put the kid out in the hallway to wait for me???

I hate that the days are shorter, the dark bothers me, and all this trouble lately must be directly related to the whole seasonal depression thing. When I got home from the gym, I found myself completely drained physically and emotionally. I was in bed about 9:30 and definitely asleep before 10:00.