Big News

Tuesday was a     day
The monster decided not to sleep in, and was actually awake before Daughter left for the bus. I was still feeling unsure of myself and depressed, and needed to get out of the house. The problem with this is that it feels like too much to get ready to go, so I just want to stay home. This adds more stress of needing to go but just can't force myself. I talked with Husband on the phone, and, of course, urged me to go to the “Y”. Since I didn't feel I couldn't go, especially because of nap time, Husband suggested taking the monster for a ride in the bike trailer and then go have lunch with him downtown.

This ate up a good chunk of my day, and when we got home, Monster and I both were very tired and laid down for a nap. The in-laws showed up about 2:00, I let them into the house, then I went back to sleep. They were stopping by to wait for Daughter to get home from school, and then take both kids with them to run some errands before dinner at SIL's house.

BIL is out of town for work, but that didn't stop SIL from announcing that she is pregnant! I am happy for them, but she is still being her annoying, know-it-all self about all this. I doubt she will ask for any help or advice from anyone but MIL, who has not been pregnant for over 30 years. The problem with this is that so many things have changed, old ways are no longer endorsed by doctors and new studies have been done, providing better, safer methods.

Wednesday, the in-laws are taking the kids back to their place in Eau Claire, WI, and the plan was for Husband and I to go out Friday night and stay the rest of the weekend. SIL and BIL are also coming with, but not until Sunday, and staying for just the day. I think I have 100% decided to stay home by myself. This is a huge thing for me, I don't think I have done this since before Daughter was born. I have issues with feeling safe, and then there is also the boredom and depression that will come into play. I am not expecting depression, and not convinced it will come, but I know the odds. If things get bad, I can always drive out to Wisconsin and spend the rest of the weekend there with the family.