Halloween

Friday was a     day
Anxiety Range: 1-3
Depression Range: 1-3
Impulses: 1
Activity Level: 2
Light Time: 1 hour

Happy Halloween!

When I woke up Friday morning remembering that I had some little Halloween packages to make up for our neighbors. They were like little Chinese food containers (without the lids) with stickers and images of Halloween-y stuff. I sneaked outside in my pajamas and dropped the candy boxes on our two neighbor's doorsteps, put one in Daughter's backpack for her teacher and took one to the bus stop under my jacket. I brought it for Annay, the girl that walks Daughter home from the bus every day. As soon as the bus was out of sight, I walked over to her house and left it on her doorstep.

Husband was using Friday for his work-at-home day, and wanted to sleep in, doing only a half day, but when he finally did get up about 8:45, he decided that he would take the entire day off work. We had plans to leave Saturday morning for the in-laws, and then stay the weekend. They are having a birthday party for MIL's mom disguised as a house-warming party, but it is still partly for the house warming. We changed our plans to taking the kids to the mall for trick-or-treating and then leave that evening, getting there late. Husband was stuck on the idea of have the house clean before we left, so that was part of the reason he decided to take the entire day off. I also thought this was a good idea, coming home to a messy house is a horrible feeling. By the time we left, the kitchen was spotless (including the floor), the living room looked great, the only thing left were some items left on the dining room table.

At 1:00, Daughter had her Halloween party at school, and Husband and I went to volunteer. Husband watched the bean bag toss while I did face painting. There was also musical chairs, pin the nose on the pumpkin, decorating cookies, fishing pond and a relay race. It was an hour of excitement and smiles all around for the kids.

It was nap time for Monster and me after the party and Husband finished the cleaning. Daughter couldn't decide if she wanted to walk around the neighborhood or go to the mall. I wanted to go to the mall after Daughter finally decided to do the neighborhood. I won out. We had a decision to make, either take the time and pack and ready ourselves so we can just head out after the mall, or... we could just go to the mall and come back and rush to get out the door. We decided to do the mall first, which was a lot of fun, and it only took us about 45 minutes to pack and leave.

We arrived after 10:30pm, Daughter crashed on the way out, and went straight to bed, oblivious to the world. Monster stayed awake the entire drive and fought going to sleep once getting to our destination. Daughter slept through all the screaming. The adults stayed up until about midnight, just unable to get MIL and Husband to stop talking.

I hit some depression only in the morning, I was busy doing thing the rest of the day. The only times I was left with nothing to do was on the ride out, and I fell asleep. Anxiety wasn't really an issue for the same reason.

Monday was a      day
Anxiety Range: 1-3
Depression Range: 1-3
Impulses: 4
Activity Level: 4
Light Time: 1 hr

MOMS Club arranged to go to the local nursing home so that our kids could trick-or-treat from the various residents. It is a big deal to them, and the kids have fun, so it's a win-win situation. I dressed Monster in his little scrubs, grabbed the play doctor kit and headed out the door. Of course when we first got there Monster started his whiny/shy/scared fit. He didn't want to be out of my arms, but warmed up when it was time to make the rounds. He listened as well as a 1yr old can, and charmed all the nurses and residents. Everyone had a smile on their face when they saw the little doctor coming their way. We even got some extra candy because he was so cute.

I stopped home to change and the two of us went to the “Y” for a little workout. As of now I will not get any free child care because of my membership. It's a free/severely discounted account which doesn't include a lot of services, I even can't use all of the YMCA locations. I rode the bike to warm up, did my weight circuit and then walked ½ mile. I don't know that I got in enough steps to make my goal, but I wasn't done right then. After dinner, I went to that Salsa dancing class again, which is a workout in itself.

Monster and I napped for about two hours that afternoon until Husband got home. After pilates on Sunday, my workout Monday morning and then Salsa, my muscles were aching. Ya know how usually you start to feel the aches the next morning, I didn't get that, I was instantly sore which made me concerned as to how sore I would be the next day.

Monday I had a problem with eating, putting all sorts of cookies and candy into my mouth. I am not going to loose any weight if I keep doing this; I replace all those calories burned, plus some each day. It would probably help if Husband would stop buying all these tempting foods.

Looking at myself in the mirrors at dance class made me feel sick again. I need a more serious and strict exercise and diet program if I truly want to loose this weight. I have 35 pounds to go before I reach my pre-Monster pregnancy weight, and then probably another 40 to get back to pre-Daughter weight. Right now my focus is just on those first 35. You have to take it in steps, right?

My anxiety and depression levels were very manageable, I kept too busy for anything to kick in. Except for that glimpse of myself in the mirror, my self-esteem was also doing well.